It Should Be Me

I feel so lost without the rhythm of your heart beat for mine to follow,

My heart is silenced; my chest, my mind, my body,my soul is hollow.

I don't think you understand how vital it is that you're next to me,

Without you here, I am not living only simply existing--I forget who I am supposed to be.

Oh, how jealous I am tonight of the blankets that cover your body and the pillow that gets to cradle your head,

For it should be me, my dear, surrounding you with my love and sharing your bed.

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© Kattie Lindsay 2016

Nothing But A Mirror

I am nothing but a mirror in shades of gray,

I reflect on this bare white wall, day after day.
I patiently await a different reflection,
But as the moments pass by I only face rejection.
I once knew a girl who would look into me and cry,
She'd ask me over and over why she was living such a lie.
Her eyes were a deep dark brown,
And her face was stuck with a never-ending frown.
Whenever she rarely smiled, her face would glow,
She was so perfect, but she just didn't know.
There were so many beautiful things about her I can't seem to recall,
But I remember I examined each and every freckle, twenty-three in all.
She told me once that she lived life with only one need,
But when lacking it, instead she'd make herself bleed.
She wanted to escape her dark and crazy illusions,
So she would fill up her mind with psychotic dillusions.
Nobody really believed her when she said she was going to leave,
And I pitty those who were blind and so naive.
There were many nights I saw her with that cold, shiny razor,
Slicing through her skin like a simple hand held laser.
Everyday I would watch her cry,
Till the day finally came as I helplessly watched her die.
She is a brown-eyed angel, now flying free,
And now she doesn't have to try to live up to what they wanted her to be.
I no longer watch her slowly destroy her soul,
Now she is somewhere up there, and she is finally whole.
I am nothing but a mirror in shades of gray,
I reflect on this bare white wall, day after day.
And day after day, I find myself missing her,
Wishing I was more than what I am, so maybe I could have saved her.

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Always, Only You

I’m still amazed how your touch makes breathing seem so hard to do,

And I’m so mesmerized that the light in my eyes still reflects you.

You know, that we both know it hasn’t been easy to get to this place,

But it’s all worth it at the end of the day, when I see that smile upon your face.

It doesn’t matter what they all might say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

Time still slows down whenever you’re around,

And still, even on my worst day you pick me up off the ground.

My heart still races when you say my name,

And though time has changed so much, my love for you still remains the same.

Even through everything that brought us both so much pain,

We silently stood beside each other and made it through the rain.

So don’t be afraid,

My love for you will never fade.

Don’t ever listen to what they all say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

And even if the desert is cold, and the grass turns blue,

There will never be a day that comes, that I’ll stop loving you.

No matter what life throws our way,

At the end of every single day,

I promise it’s always gonna be only you.

Always, only you.