Dancing With Your Ghost Again

Dancing With Your Ghost Again 

I'm sorry I'm calling so late, I hope you can't tell that I've been drinking again...

I've been up way too long just daydreaming and dancing with your ghost again.

I chase your shadows around the room, I chase them down the halls,

You're everywhere I go, everywhere I turn; it's just you and me stuck between these four walls.

So I'm sorry if I'm breathless, but it's because of you.

You see it's not easy trying to catch up to you,

And it's even harder trying to forget you.

So I know I sound delirious, but baby it's all because of you.

I'm sorry if I'm not saying much, I really just wanted to hear your sleepy voice and  the sound of your sigh,

The sound of you breathing on the other end of the line is just what I needed tonight to simply get by.

I've got our favorite record playing on 
repeat,

And in my mind we're wrapped up together in your rose petal stained sheets.

I'm sorry if I sound so breathless, I just can get enough of you.

You know it's never been easy to keep a hold on you,

And it's always been impossible to truly let go of you. 

I know you can hear that I'm restless--it ain't got nothing to do with the Jack--it's simply because of you.

I know you said that you don't dance,

You don't do flowers, hearts and romance...

But tonight your ghost is giving me his all,

And you don't even know it as you sit on the other end of this call.

I can't sleep and it's because of you.

I can't catch my breath and it's because of you.

I'm restless and it's because of you.

I'm breathless and it's because of you.

I'm sorry that I woke you at this time of night, you know I let this poison get the best of me again...

I just thought you should know that I've been up way too long... And I'm dancing with your ghost again.

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© Kattie Lindsay 2016

It Should Be Me

I feel so lost without the rhythm of your heart beat for mine to follow,

My heart is silenced; my chest, my mind, my body,my soul is hollow.

I don't think you understand how vital it is that you're next to me,

Without you here, I am not living only simply existing--I forget who I am supposed to be.

Oh, how jealous I am tonight of the blankets that cover your body and the pillow that gets to cradle your head,

For it should be me, my dear, surrounding you with my love and sharing your bed.

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Your Secret

We talk in circles; reminiscing about the past and talking about all the places we could’ve gone.
We dance in circles; clinging to hope that there’s a future we can build new dreams on.
You know we could have it all, if the rest of the world would just float away,
You know we could make it, if you could just walk away.
We’ve done this for so long; we’ve been here so many times before.
You hold my heart in your back pocket, and I keep yours in my top drawer.
No one knows our truth, there’s no way they could ever understand…
How the world disappears with just the touch of your hand.
And it’s like a spark that ignites a flame,
The way my heart stops when I hear you say my name.
I don’t wanna be your secret anymore.
You tell me that I deserve so much more,
And you break my heart each time you walk out that door.
I don’t wanna be your secret anymore.
You mean well in all you do; you’re selfless and too loyal for your own good.
You could have so much more; you would have it all if you’d just believe that you could.
I know we made a go at this many years ago, when we were full of innocence and youth,
I know I hurt you, I damaged you; but that was never my intention and that’s the truth.
Time has changed us both, but you still fit me like my favorite old sweater.
If you can trust me, I promise I will love you so much better.
No one knows our truth, there’s no way they could ever understand…
The way you hold me up when I’m too weak to even stand.
And it’s like a spark that ignites a flame,
When you tell me that you still feel the same.
I can’t be your secret anymore.
You and I both deserve so much more.
I know it hurts you just much when you have to walk out that door.
Please tell me, I don’t have to be your secret anymore.
Please don’t keep chasing me unless you’re ready to catch me.
Please don’t tell me you love me, until you’re finally free…
Free to love me openly, free to just let us be.
Free to shed the shame,
And free to declare I am not the one to blame.
You know we’re comfortable together; you still fit me like my old favorite sweater.
Don’t think about the aftermath and the pieces we’ll have to pick up later, let’s just love each other better.
I just wanna love you so much better.
But I can’t do that until I’m not your secrete anymore.

-Kattie Lindsay 12/23/2012

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I Never Got To Say

The weather’s changing; soon it’ll be May,
And  I’m still choking on the words I never got to say.
The words slowly melt into my soul until they run through my veins,
They swim through my heart, up to my brain, where the memory of you still remains.
For a moment I catch a glimpse of you and I can finally breathe, my heart can beat,
I can dream without them breaking, for a moment that glimpse of you is so bittersweet.
But before my mind gets too far away,
I gasp for air, still choking on the words I never got to say.
The sun’s setting; soon it’ll be night,
And I’ll still find myself wide awake under the bright moonlight.
All alone in a cold and empty bed, 
Wrestling with all the words I left unsaid.
No one knows the sounds of your ghost better than I do,
And no one understands why I still see shadows of you, but I do.
I wish I could say what I never said is done,
But it’s not over; it’s something I can’t outrun.
As dawn breaks and the sun peaks through the sky bringing a new day,
I can only continue my struggle, choking on the words I never got to say.
It’s time to get up, 
Begin the same old cover up.
A little lipstick, mascara and blush to hide the tear stained cheeks,
No one will ever notice I haven’t slept in weeks.
And so the war continues on,
Nothing’s changed, you’re still gone.
I’m still wrapped up in this illusion,
You and I are still bleeding because of this confusion.
And even though my tongue is tied I know that someday,
Eventually I’ll stop choking on the words I never did say.
I’ll never stop reaching out to hold you,
I’ll never stop wishing I’d told you all the things I thought you already knew.

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© Kattie Lindsay 2016

Room To Breathe

Days go by and you’re still half a world away,
Before I know it, yesterday turns into today.
I cling to the phone sitting in silence just to hear you breathe,
I know you’re okay; we’ve made it through another day with a little room to breathe.
These letters and these pictures are the only piece of you I have to hold on to,
At times I’m so wrapped up in them my world only has enough room for me and you.
For a few minutes the days of waiting are all worth my while,
And if I close my eyes and just listen, I can actually hear you crack a smile.
We make plans and promises we swear we’ll never break,
We talk about the memories and vows we can’t wait to make,
Somehow we’re still together even though we’re far apart,
The miles don’t matter; distance means nothing between your arms and my heart.
I long for the moments sitting on the phone in silence when I can hear you breathe,
I know you’re okay; we’ve made it through another day with a little room to breathe.
I find it so hard to leave yesterday behind,
Because the seconds feel like days and it’s hard to occupy my mind.
Thoughts of you keep me up in bed at night,
I can’t help but wonder; is it safe where you lay your head tonight?
Are you carrying little pieces of me with you?
Is that enough to get you through?
I just wanna sit on the phone in silence so I can hear you breathe,
I need to know you’re okay; need to know we’ve made it through another day so I can have a little room to breathe.
I need to know we’re still living under the same moon,
It’ll all be over, you’ll come home soon.
Cuz paper hearts they tear; smiles begin to wear.
I need to feel you there; feel my lungs breathe your same air.
I won’t be at peace till you’re with me,
And I won’t sleep till you fill up this empty space next to me.
But for now I’ll hold onto the static laced with the silent sounds you make when you breathe,
For today, I’ll know you’re okay; we’ve made it through another day,
And for a few moments I finally have a little room to breathe.

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Never Felt So Right

The moment I saw you wearing that silly red tie,
I knew then, I had to do something to catch your eye.
Then you caught me smiling and sent one back my way,
I couldn’t believe something so simple could take my breath away.
And I’ll admit, sometimes I jump the gun,
But when it’s all said and done,
It just feels so good to run.
Will you run with me?
Take my hand and let’s run into the night,
I think you’ll realize feeling breathless never felt so right.
When the seconds tick by too slow,
And you just want to let go,
Run with me into the night.
You’ll see, being careless never felt so right.
I’m not asking for much, just for you to give this a chance.
I’ll show you that there’s more to me than what you saw with that first glance.
Just lay here with me and listen in silence to the raindrops that fall,
And together we’ll make this great big world seem so small.
Will you run with me?
Take my hand and let’s run into the night,
I think you’ll realize feeling breathless never felt so right.
When the seconds tick by too slow,
And you just want to let go,
Run with me into the night.
You’ll see, being careless never felt so right.
No words are needed tonight,
Because being this happy never felt so right

Beautiful Thing

For My Baby Boy, Kohen Scott Lindsay


What a brilliant mind,
So deep, so soft, so kind.
What a wonderful smile,
It makes everything I do worth while.
Such a talented soul,
That is the only thing that has ever made me whole.
What deep blue eyes,
That shine brighter than the skies.
What a tender kiss,
It's nothing short of bliss.
Such a pretty song to sing,
When you hold everything.
Because his love is such a beautiful thing,
Such a beautiful thing.
What an amazing sunrise,
Full of smiles and butterflies.
What a glorious night,
Where everything around is just right.
Such an incredible way,
How he finds the right things to say.
What a special way to be,
When we're together to fly free.
What a better way to live,
Where love is all you give.
Such a pretty song to sing,
When you hold everything.
Because his love is such a beautiful thing,
Such an amazing, beautiful thing.

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Lucky Charms and Us

Eight a.m. on the dot,
Half asleep, I somehow manage to mumble “Oh Kohen Scott”.
He’s calling out my name; he’s ready to start the day,
I, however, am not in the mood to play.
I open the door to see blankets and toys thrown all over the place,
And then an innocent “Hi!” squeals from the direction of his smiling face.
His arms open wide,
My heart swelling with pride.
I rub my eyes and smile, “I love you” I say,
“GoMornin’” he says as I walk his way.
After hugs and kisses, down the stairs we go,
He asks for cereal and his favorite show.
As I hold my head in close to his,
I say, “’Lucky Charms’ and ‘Cars’ it is!”
And just like yesterday, and the day before,
Half of the bowl ends up on the floor,
And before I know it, he’s asking for more.
So I sit, right there next to him and memorize his every move,
And then I realize I’ve got nothing left to prove.
My little man loves me no matter what,
He doesn’t care when I don’t wear make-up, or dress-up, or about the last time I had a haircut.
I’m his Mama.
His Hero.
His Protector.
His one and always constant.
In his eyes, I can do anything,
And in his heart I am his everything.
As time goes by and I watch him grow,
There’s one thing that will never change this I know,
If being his Mama is the only thing I ever do right,
My life will be complete, and I can sleep at night.
Gazing over at him I start to feel a tear,
Only then to realize a Lucky Charm has hit me in the ear.
He laughs a sneaky little laugh until my eyes meet his,
And I can’t help but grin and say, “’Lucky Charms’ and ‘Us’ it is!”
8:15 on the dot,
I think to myself, “Oh how I love you, Kohen Scott”.

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Always, Only You

I’m still amazed how your touch makes breathing seem so hard to do,

And I’m so mesmerized that the light in my eyes still reflects you.

You know, that we both know it hasn’t been easy to get to this place,

But it’s all worth it at the end of the day, when I see that smile upon your face.

It doesn’t matter what they all might say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

Time still slows down whenever you’re around,

And still, even on my worst day you pick me up off the ground.

My heart still races when you say my name,

And though time has changed so much, my love for you still remains the same.

Even through everything that brought us both so much pain,

We silently stood beside each other and made it through the rain.

So don’t be afraid,

My love for you will never fade.

Don’t ever listen to what they all say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

And even if the desert is cold, and the grass turns blue,

There will never be a day that comes, that I’ll stop loving you.

No matter what life throws our way,

At the end of every single day,

I promise it’s always gonna be only you.

Always, only you.