A Sparrow in love with a Hurricane

A Sparrow in Love with a Hurricane 

Darling, I don't think you know how much it hurts to admit that we've been cut from the same fabric; we're burned and frayed.
We're tornadoes; beautiful storms wreaking havoc on all that's in our wake, never sticking it out to clean up the messes we've made.
Wasn't it you that said "love 'em and leave 'em, never let 'em make it out unfazed?
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you'll never make it out unscathed."
Oh, darling, if you only knew how much I hate myself for becoming you,
I'm doing all the things that you did; the things I swore that I'd never do.
I've become a callous megalomaniac; a ghost to all I've loved and they don't know once I'm gone, I won't be coming back.
Honey, you taught me well and for that I'm not proud.
You sucked me in to this ruthless habituation and like you I've become a destructive storm cloud.
You burned me, you bruised me; I might be stone cold but, still I remain unbroken.
You changed me for the worst--you nearly killed me with all the words you left unspoken.
After you knocked me down and the dust settled, I brushed myself off and stood back up,
I was barely breathing but I learned that I don't need anyone to pick me back up,
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you can't expect to make it out unscathed.
I did what I needed to do, even if that meant me becoming you.
I'm surviving by doing all that you did; all that I swore I'd never do.
I am a callous megalomaniac, quite like you.
Without a single goodbye, I become a ghost--I'll never be back, just like you.
Don't you worry, darling, I might be burned, I might be bruised, I might be forever changed; still, I remain unbroken.
All of your demons will always look like me,
I will torment you, I will haunt you,
I am your ghost, always following you.
There's no escaping me.
I will remain inside your every single demon.
I will remain your ghost, never completely invisible to you.

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© Kattie Lindsay 2016

It Should Be Me

I feel so lost without the rhythm of your heart beat for mine to follow,

My heart is silenced; my chest, my mind, my body,my soul is hollow.

I don't think you understand how vital it is that you're next to me,

Without you here, I am not living only simply existing--I forget who I am supposed to be.

Oh, how jealous I am tonight of the blankets that cover your body and the pillow that gets to cradle your head,

For it should be me, my dear, surrounding you with my love and sharing your bed.

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Play On

A voice from the past that won't stop haunting me, A tinge in my heart that won't stop taunting me.

It's an infinity circle, there's never an end, Just when it's about to break, you fly in and stop the bend.

Your hellos are so sweet, and your goodbyes are so bitter.

But you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

You never come off, no matter how hard I try to wash you away.

You're like listening to The White Album, I can't do anything but let the record play.

You're my ghost, my ghost for tonight.

You're here for now, but you'll soon disappear come day light.

Love me and leave me,

Want me but don't need me.

It's love, it's hate.

It's catastrophically fate.

If a wish were really a wish, I'd wish you away.

If you weren't so damn good, I wouldn't keep letting this record play.

A hunger that comes from deep within the core of me, A faith so strong, not even God could shake me.

You're at the center in all that I am, all that I've become.

You've captured my soul, when I don't feel you all I feel is numb.

Your love is so sweet but your hate is so bitter.

No matter how hard I try to wash you away, you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

If I could, I would rinse you all away.

If you weren't so god damn good, I'd push stop--but instead I let this record play.

So baby play on, play on.

I am at your will, faithfully your pawn.

Play on.

Play on.

I'll love you with every ounce within me tonight, I'll save my tears for the morning--when my eyes meet day light.

Before I know it, you'll be gone.

While My Guitar Gently Weeps, play on.

Oh play on. 

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© Kattie Lindsay 2016

Always, Only You

I’m still amazed how your touch makes breathing seem so hard to do,

And I’m so mesmerized that the light in my eyes still reflects you.

You know, that we both know it hasn’t been easy to get to this place,

But it’s all worth it at the end of the day, when I see that smile upon your face.

It doesn’t matter what they all might say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

Time still slows down whenever you’re around,

And still, even on my worst day you pick me up off the ground.

My heart still races when you say my name,

And though time has changed so much, my love for you still remains the same.

Even through everything that brought us both so much pain,

We silently stood beside each other and made it through the rain.

So don’t be afraid,

My love for you will never fade.

Don’t ever listen to what they all say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

And even if the desert is cold, and the grass turns blue,

There will never be a day that comes, that I’ll stop loving you.

No matter what life throws our way,

At the end of every single day,

I promise it’s always gonna be only you.

Always, only you.

Defeated By You

Two quarters, four pennies, is all I got to my name,

Sixty-two hours, and I still wait, pacing the floor.

My heart still aches, nothing’s changed, I still feel the same,

But still, I’m waiting on you, to walk through the door.

Baby, I’m losing my mind,

I don’t know what to do,

I’m still looking, but I got nothing to find,

I don’t know what to do,

Somehow I lost you.



I try to remember all the things I said,

But thoughts of emptiness fill my head.

I hate this.

But I hate you more...

Simply, because I love you so much.

And I can't stand the way I still yearn for your touch.

I’m just another victim who,

Is just one more casualty defeated by you.



I should have, could have, would have, said I needed you.

They all think I’m moving on,

And that’s what I should do,

But you know the truth is, I’m just not that strong,

And the truth is, I just can’t let you go.

I’m losing my mind,

I don’t know what to do,

I’m still looking, but I got nothing to find,

I don’t know what to do,

How did I lose you?



I try to remember all the things you said,

But thoughts of emptiness fill my head.

I hate this. But I hate you more...

Simply, because I love you so much.

And I can't stand the way I still yearn for your touch.

I can’t let myself be another victim who,

Is just one more casualty defeated by you.



Oh how this house seems so small,

When you’re waiting by the phone.

You know I’d rather hurt, than feel nothing at all,

And I’d rather miss you, than feel so alone.

I’m still waiting up for you,

Baby, I’m still holding out hope for you.

Don’t tell me I lost you,

Cuz I can’t let myself be another victim who,

Is just another casualty defeated by you.

Don’t lose faith in me, because I know what I need to do,

I promise I will come find you.

I Am Not Enough

I loved you, inside and out.


Even when the darkness of your past, cast me with doubt.

I gave you my mind and my whole heart.

Because you looked me in the eye and swore nothing would ever tear us apart.

I made you my life, and the reason for my whole existence.

I was sure that the love we had could make it through the distance.

But I, was not enough.

I tried to fullfill your every need, and be what I thought you wanted me to be,

But that all came crashing down, when I realized I could never be.

I could never contend with your dream,

And trying to compete was like dead weight swimming upstream.

No matter what I did, I could never compare,

And soon the competition just became too much to bear.

There was nothing needed to show,

No words were ever needed to know,

That I, would never be enough.

I gave you a gift that no one else could give,

And I believed you when you said it was the reason you lived.

I just wanted you to be there,

But when I needed you the most, you were too caught up in your dreams to care.

I gave you chance after chance to create our own dream.

But you constantly pushed that aside to chase your own dream.

Maybe I should've learned the first time you left my dreams behind,

But I thought my love would open your eyes, then I soon realized I was the one that was blind.

I don't know why it took so long for me to finally see,

That there was a difference in who I thought you were and, what you would never be.

But now it's all clear,

No words are needed to hear,

That no matter what, I, can never be enough.

My heart honestly breaks for you,

That you really don't even have a clue.

You think you're following your heart,

But in reality, you're only ripping your true dreams apart.

I wish I could say I was sorry,

That,

I am.

Not enough.

I.

Was.

Never.

Enough.

But after I've picked up all the pieces,

And the thinkness around my heart decreases,

Someone, Who you never were for me,

Will finally see the stregnth I have within me.

And will truly show,

And let me really know,

That I,

Am,

Enough.