A Sparrow in love with a Hurricane

A Sparrow in Love with a Hurricane 

Darling, I don't think you know how much it hurts to admit that we've been cut from the same fabric; we're burned and frayed.
We're tornadoes; beautiful storms wreaking havoc on all that's in our wake, never sticking it out to clean up the messes we've made.
Wasn't it you that said "love 'em and leave 'em, never let 'em make it out unfazed?
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you'll never make it out unscathed."
Oh, darling, if you only knew how much I hate myself for becoming you,
I'm doing all the things that you did; the things I swore that I'd never do.
I've become a callous megalomaniac; a ghost to all I've loved and they don't know once I'm gone, I won't be coming back.
Honey, you taught me well and for that I'm not proud.
You sucked me in to this ruthless habituation and like you I've become a destructive storm cloud.
You burned me, you bruised me; I might be stone cold but, still I remain unbroken.
You changed me for the worst--you nearly killed me with all the words you left unspoken.
After you knocked me down and the dust settled, I brushed myself off and stood back up,
I was barely breathing but I learned that I don't need anyone to pick me back up,
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you can't expect to make it out unscathed.
I did what I needed to do, even if that meant me becoming you.
I'm surviving by doing all that you did; all that I swore I'd never do.
I am a callous megalomaniac, quite like you.
Without a single goodbye, I become a ghost--I'll never be back, just like you.
Don't you worry, darling, I might be burned, I might be bruised, I might be forever changed; still, I remain unbroken.
All of your demons will always look like me,
I will torment you, I will haunt you,
I am your ghost, always following you.
There's no escaping me.
I will remain inside your every single demon.
I will remain your ghost, never completely invisible to you.

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Dancing With Your Ghost Again

Dancing With Your Ghost Again 

I'm sorry I'm calling so late, I hope you can't tell that I've been drinking again...

I've been up way too long just daydreaming and dancing with your ghost again.

I chase your shadows around the room, I chase them down the halls,

You're everywhere I go, everywhere I turn; it's just you and me stuck between these four walls.

So I'm sorry if I'm breathless, but it's because of you.

You see it's not easy trying to catch up to you,

And it's even harder trying to forget you.

So I know I sound delirious, but baby it's all because of you.

I'm sorry if I'm not saying much, I really just wanted to hear your sleepy voice and  the sound of your sigh,

The sound of you breathing on the other end of the line is just what I needed tonight to simply get by.

I've got our favorite record playing on 
repeat,

And in my mind we're wrapped up together in your rose petal stained sheets.

I'm sorry if I sound so breathless, I just can get enough of you.

You know it's never been easy to keep a hold on you,

And it's always been impossible to truly let go of you. 

I know you can hear that I'm restless--it ain't got nothing to do with the Jack--it's simply because of you.

I know you said that you don't dance,

You don't do flowers, hearts and romance...

But tonight your ghost is giving me his all,

And you don't even know it as you sit on the other end of this call.

I can't sleep and it's because of you.

I can't catch my breath and it's because of you.

I'm restless and it's because of you.

I'm breathless and it's because of you.

I'm sorry that I woke you at this time of night, you know I let this poison get the best of me again...

I just thought you should know that I've been up way too long... And I'm dancing with your ghost again.

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It Should Be Me

I feel so lost without the rhythm of your heart beat for mine to follow,

My heart is silenced; my chest, my mind, my body,my soul is hollow.

I don't think you understand how vital it is that you're next to me,

Without you here, I am not living only simply existing--I forget who I am supposed to be.

Oh, how jealous I am tonight of the blankets that cover your body and the pillow that gets to cradle your head,

For it should be me, my dear, surrounding you with my love and sharing your bed.

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Play On

A voice from the past that won't stop haunting me, A tinge in my heart that won't stop taunting me.

It's an infinity circle, there's never an end, Just when it's about to break, you fly in and stop the bend.

Your hellos are so sweet, and your goodbyes are so bitter.

But you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

You never come off, no matter how hard I try to wash you away.

You're like listening to The White Album, I can't do anything but let the record play.

You're my ghost, my ghost for tonight.

You're here for now, but you'll soon disappear come day light.

Love me and leave me,

Want me but don't need me.

It's love, it's hate.

It's catastrophically fate.

If a wish were really a wish, I'd wish you away.

If you weren't so damn good, I wouldn't keep letting this record play.

A hunger that comes from deep within the core of me, A faith so strong, not even God could shake me.

You're at the center in all that I am, all that I've become.

You've captured my soul, when I don't feel you all I feel is numb.

Your love is so sweet but your hate is so bitter.

No matter how hard I try to wash you away, you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

If I could, I would rinse you all away.

If you weren't so god damn good, I'd push stop--but instead I let this record play.

So baby play on, play on.

I am at your will, faithfully your pawn.

Play on.

Play on.

I'll love you with every ounce within me tonight, I'll save my tears for the morning--when my eyes meet day light.

Before I know it, you'll be gone.

While My Guitar Gently Weeps, play on.

Oh play on. 

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Your Secret

We talk in circles; reminiscing about the past and talking about all the places we could’ve gone.
We dance in circles; clinging to hope that there’s a future we can build new dreams on.
You know we could have it all, if the rest of the world would just float away,
You know we could make it, if you could just walk away.
We’ve done this for so long; we’ve been here so many times before.
You hold my heart in your back pocket, and I keep yours in my top drawer.
No one knows our truth, there’s no way they could ever understand…
How the world disappears with just the touch of your hand.
And it’s like a spark that ignites a flame,
The way my heart stops when I hear you say my name.
I don’t wanna be your secret anymore.
You tell me that I deserve so much more,
And you break my heart each time you walk out that door.
I don’t wanna be your secret anymore.
You mean well in all you do; you’re selfless and too loyal for your own good.
You could have so much more; you would have it all if you’d just believe that you could.
I know we made a go at this many years ago, when we were full of innocence and youth,
I know I hurt you, I damaged you; but that was never my intention and that’s the truth.
Time has changed us both, but you still fit me like my favorite old sweater.
If you can trust me, I promise I will love you so much better.
No one knows our truth, there’s no way they could ever understand…
The way you hold me up when I’m too weak to even stand.
And it’s like a spark that ignites a flame,
When you tell me that you still feel the same.
I can’t be your secret anymore.
You and I both deserve so much more.
I know it hurts you just much when you have to walk out that door.
Please tell me, I don’t have to be your secret anymore.
Please don’t keep chasing me unless you’re ready to catch me.
Please don’t tell me you love me, until you’re finally free…
Free to love me openly, free to just let us be.
Free to shed the shame,
And free to declare I am not the one to blame.
You know we’re comfortable together; you still fit me like my old favorite sweater.
Don’t think about the aftermath and the pieces we’ll have to pick up later, let’s just love each other better.
I just wanna love you so much better.
But I can’t do that until I’m not your secrete anymore.

-Kattie Lindsay 12/23/2012

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Unjustly Bare

Unjustly Bare—Kattie Lindsay 10/30/2011

It’s the kind of eyes you can’t help but get lost in,

Because it’s such a familiar place—a place you’ve already been.

It’s the kind of smile you just can’t help but give in to,

Because it’s so inviting and intoxicating, it makes you forget what’s really true.

It’s the kind of weakness you somehow find strength in,

But still, the rope frays and it wears you completely thin.

Soon enough you find yourself so unjustly bare,

Wondering just how exactly you let yourself get there.

And it’s not fair,

That once again you’ve let those familiar eyes leave you so unjustly bare.

It’s the kind of heart you just can’t help but love,

Because it’s something you want nothing more than to be a part of.

It’s the kind of touch you can’t help but reach out for,

Because once you’re given an inch, you want to take a mile more.

It’s the kind of danger you somehow find hope in,

But still, the rope frays and it wears you completely thin.

Soon enough you find yourself so unjustly bare,

Wondering just how exactly you let yourself get there.

And it’s not fair,

That once again the love you wanted so much to be a part of has left you so unjustly bare.

It’s the steps you take that circles right back to that same door,

Because being alone is worse than ending up on that cold concrete floor.

It’s those moments where no words are needed to take your breath away,

Because that’s what keeps you ending up here once again at the end of the day.

It’s the kind of misery you find comfort in,

But still, the rope frays and it wears you completely thin.

Soon enough you find yourself so unjustly bare,

Wondering just how exactly you let yourself get there.

And it’s not fair,

That these circles bring you right back to a door that no one will answer while you’re waiting outside standing all alone, so unjustly bare.

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Never Felt So Right

The moment I saw you wearing that silly red tie,
I knew then, I had to do something to catch your eye.
Then you caught me smiling and sent one back my way,
I couldn’t believe something so simple could take my breath away.
And I’ll admit, sometimes I jump the gun,
But when it’s all said and done,
It just feels so good to run.
Will you run with me?
Take my hand and let’s run into the night,
I think you’ll realize feeling breathless never felt so right.
When the seconds tick by too slow,
And you just want to let go,
Run with me into the night.
You’ll see, being careless never felt so right.
I’m not asking for much, just for you to give this a chance.
I’ll show you that there’s more to me than what you saw with that first glance.
Just lay here with me and listen in silence to the raindrops that fall,
And together we’ll make this great big world seem so small.
Will you run with me?
Take my hand and let’s run into the night,
I think you’ll realize feeling breathless never felt so right.
When the seconds tick by too slow,
And you just want to let go,
Run with me into the night.
You’ll see, being careless never felt so right.
No words are needed tonight,
Because being this happy never felt so right

Beautiful Thing

For My Baby Boy, Kohen Scott Lindsay


What a brilliant mind,
So deep, so soft, so kind.
What a wonderful smile,
It makes everything I do worth while.
Such a talented soul,
That is the only thing that has ever made me whole.
What deep blue eyes,
That shine brighter than the skies.
What a tender kiss,
It's nothing short of bliss.
Such a pretty song to sing,
When you hold everything.
Because his love is such a beautiful thing,
Such a beautiful thing.
What an amazing sunrise,
Full of smiles and butterflies.
What a glorious night,
Where everything around is just right.
Such an incredible way,
How he finds the right things to say.
What a special way to be,
When we're together to fly free.
What a better way to live,
Where love is all you give.
Such a pretty song to sing,
When you hold everything.
Because his love is such a beautiful thing,
Such an amazing, beautiful thing.

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Nothing But A Mirror

I am nothing but a mirror in shades of gray,

I reflect on this bare white wall, day after day.
I patiently await a different reflection,
But as the moments pass by I only face rejection.
I once knew a girl who would look into me and cry,
She'd ask me over and over why she was living such a lie.
Her eyes were a deep dark brown,
And her face was stuck with a never-ending frown.
Whenever she rarely smiled, her face would glow,
She was so perfect, but she just didn't know.
There were so many beautiful things about her I can't seem to recall,
But I remember I examined each and every freckle, twenty-three in all.
She told me once that she lived life with only one need,
But when lacking it, instead she'd make herself bleed.
She wanted to escape her dark and crazy illusions,
So she would fill up her mind with psychotic dillusions.
Nobody really believed her when she said she was going to leave,
And I pitty those who were blind and so naive.
There were many nights I saw her with that cold, shiny razor,
Slicing through her skin like a simple hand held laser.
Everyday I would watch her cry,
Till the day finally came as I helplessly watched her die.
She is a brown-eyed angel, now flying free,
And now she doesn't have to try to live up to what they wanted her to be.
I no longer watch her slowly destroy her soul,
Now she is somewhere up there, and she is finally whole.
I am nothing but a mirror in shades of gray,
I reflect on this bare white wall, day after day.
And day after day, I find myself missing her,
Wishing I was more than what I am, so maybe I could have saved her.

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Always, Only You

I’m still amazed how your touch makes breathing seem so hard to do,

And I’m so mesmerized that the light in my eyes still reflects you.

You know, that we both know it hasn’t been easy to get to this place,

But it’s all worth it at the end of the day, when I see that smile upon your face.

It doesn’t matter what they all might say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

Time still slows down whenever you’re around,

And still, even on my worst day you pick me up off the ground.

My heart still races when you say my name,

And though time has changed so much, my love for you still remains the same.

Even through everything that brought us both so much pain,

We silently stood beside each other and made it through the rain.

So don’t be afraid,

My love for you will never fade.

Don’t ever listen to what they all say,

Because at the end of the day,

My heart still holds you,

And it’s always, only you.

Always, only you.

And even if the desert is cold, and the grass turns blue,

There will never be a day that comes, that I’ll stop loving you.

No matter what life throws our way,

At the end of every single day,

I promise it’s always gonna be only you.

Always, only you.