Sunrise/Sunset

The blinding sunrises have become dreadful, as the rising sun only reminds me that I've got to get up and face another agonizing day without you; but the blazing sunsets have become my salvation, as the setting sun affirms that I've made it through one more undefeated day without you.

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We Win Wars

We Win The Wars

Tonight, my love, I'm longing for the nights when I can feel you breathing on my neck,
As I drift off to sleep, feeling your loving fingers tracing every freckle your eyes can find, never missing a speck.
Tonight, my love, I'm craving the warmth of your skin covering all of mine,
And the weight of your body lying on this bed, your head so heavy on the pillow next to mine.
I just want to breathe you in; memorize the way you smell, the way you taste, every particle of you that exists, every bit of the creation that you are.
I want to trace your your face and count the number of smile lines near the sides of your eyes, admire every tiny imperfection, find and kiss your every scar.
I've been waiting for so long to be close enough to feel the fire that burns inside of you,
It's taken nearly ten revolutions around the sun to bring me back to you.
We've been dancing in circles, around and around we go.
We've been holding on as the seasons have changed, whirling in circles, around and around we go.
Tonight, my love, I'm dreaming of you with a hopeful heart.
My thoughts have taken me to a place where we don't have to be apart.
Tonight, my love, I'm cold and so alone just listening to the rain fall,
My mind is disillusioned by your footsteps that I should be hearing, slowly creeping down the hall.
Don't keep me waiting too long, I need to feel the fire that burns and rages so deep inside of you.
Don't keep me waiting darling, I'm too weak to make it through another revolution around the sun without you.
We can keep dancing in circles, around and around we can go.
Hold me tighter as the seasons change, I'll cling to you, as around and around we go.
Breathe deep, let all of my soul seep into yours,
Don't you worry about the obstacles; you and me, we don't just fight the battles, baby we win the wars.
Keep dancing with me darling, around and around we'll go.
Hold me tighter baby, in these circles around and around we'll go.

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A Sparrow in love with a Hurricane

A Sparrow in Love with a Hurricane 

Darling, I don't think you know how much it hurts to admit that we've been cut from the same fabric; we're burned and frayed.
We're tornadoes; beautiful storms wreaking havoc on all that's in our wake, never sticking it out to clean up the messes we've made.
Wasn't it you that said "love 'em and leave 'em, never let 'em make it out unfazed?
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you'll never make it out unscathed."
Oh, darling, if you only knew how much I hate myself for becoming you,
I'm doing all the things that you did; the things I swore that I'd never do.
I've become a callous megalomaniac; a ghost to all I've loved and they don't know once I'm gone, I won't be coming back.
Honey, you taught me well and for that I'm not proud.
You sucked me in to this ruthless habituation and like you I've become a destructive storm cloud.
You burned me, you bruised me; I might be stone cold but, still I remain unbroken.
You changed me for the worst--you nearly killed me with all the words you left unspoken.
After you knocked me down and the dust settled, I brushed myself off and stood back up,
I was barely breathing but I learned that I don't need anyone to pick me back up,
Cause when you're a sparrow in love with a hurricane, you can't expect to make it out unscathed.
I did what I needed to do, even if that meant me becoming you.
I'm surviving by doing all that you did; all that I swore I'd never do.
I am a callous megalomaniac, quite like you.
Without a single goodbye, I become a ghost--I'll never be back, just like you.
Don't you worry, darling, I might be burned, I might be bruised, I might be forever changed; still, I remain unbroken.
All of your demons will always look like me,
I will torment you, I will haunt you,
I am your ghost, always following you.
There's no escaping me.
I will remain inside your every single demon.
I will remain your ghost, never completely invisible to you.

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Dancing With Your Ghost Again

Dancing With Your Ghost Again 

I'm sorry I'm calling so late, I hope you can't tell that I've been drinking again...

I've been up way too long just daydreaming and dancing with your ghost again.

I chase your shadows around the room, I chase them down the halls,

You're everywhere I go, everywhere I turn; it's just you and me stuck between these four walls.

So I'm sorry if I'm breathless, but it's because of you.

You see it's not easy trying to catch up to you,

And it's even harder trying to forget you.

So I know I sound delirious, but baby it's all because of you.

I'm sorry if I'm not saying much, I really just wanted to hear your sleepy voice and  the sound of your sigh,

The sound of you breathing on the other end of the line is just what I needed tonight to simply get by.

I've got our favorite record playing on 
repeat,

And in my mind we're wrapped up together in your rose petal stained sheets.

I'm sorry if I sound so breathless, I just can get enough of you.

You know it's never been easy to keep a hold on you,

And it's always been impossible to truly let go of you. 

I know you can hear that I'm restless--it ain't got nothing to do with the Jack--it's simply because of you.

I know you said that you don't dance,

You don't do flowers, hearts and romance...

But tonight your ghost is giving me his all,

And you don't even know it as you sit on the other end of this call.

I can't sleep and it's because of you.

I can't catch my breath and it's because of you.

I'm restless and it's because of you.

I'm breathless and it's because of you.

I'm sorry that I woke you at this time of night, you know I let this poison get the best of me again...

I just thought you should know that I've been up way too long... And I'm dancing with your ghost again.

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Nowhere In This War

I push, you pull, I keep on coming back for more.
You swing, I duck, and we’re stuck in our own personal war.
You love me, you hate me; you can never decide.
I don’t want you, but I need you; my hands are tied.
Why does it always have to be this way?
Why am I never enough to make you stay?
“Why?” I just can’t keep myself from asking.
I wish I could show you all the pain I’ve been masking.
Why don’t you need me the way that I need you?
Why can’t you love me the way that I love you?
For years and years I’ve waited to be your one and only,
You give so little before you take it all back and leave me nothing but lonely.
I pull, you push; it’s obvious, I’ve always wanted you more.
I swing, you duck, I’m getting nowhere in this war.
You say you love me, but you leave me; when will you ever decide?
I tell you I want you, but I can’t have you; can’t you feel how much you’re tearing me up inside?
Why won’t I ever learn it will always be this way?
When will I realize I’ll never be enough to make you stay?
“Why?” I just can’t keep myself from asking.
You’ve never looked deep enough to see the pain I’ve spent all these years masking.
Why do I need you to need me, the way that I think that I need you?
Why do I need you to love me, the way that I can’t help but love you?
One day, I just might forget you, the way you’ve forgotten me.
Someday, I just might see you for who you are, and who you’ll never be.
And there might come a day,
When I can finally say,
I’m simply not in love with you anymore.
But for now, I’ve just got to come to terms with the fact that I’m getting nowhere in this war.

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It Should Be Me

I feel so lost without the rhythm of your heart beat for mine to follow,

My heart is silenced; my chest, my mind, my body,my soul is hollow.

I don't think you understand how vital it is that you're next to me,

Without you here, I am not living only simply existing--I forget who I am supposed to be.

Oh, how jealous I am tonight of the blankets that cover your body and the pillow that gets to cradle your head,

For it should be me, my dear, surrounding you with my love and sharing your bed.

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Play On

A voice from the past that won't stop haunting me, A tinge in my heart that won't stop taunting me.

It's an infinity circle, there's never an end, Just when it's about to break, you fly in and stop the bend.

Your hellos are so sweet, and your goodbyes are so bitter.

But you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

You never come off, no matter how hard I try to wash you away.

You're like listening to The White Album, I can't do anything but let the record play.

You're my ghost, my ghost for tonight.

You're here for now, but you'll soon disappear come day light.

Love me and leave me,

Want me but don't need me.

It's love, it's hate.

It's catastrophically fate.

If a wish were really a wish, I'd wish you away.

If you weren't so damn good, I wouldn't keep letting this record play.

A hunger that comes from deep within the core of me, A faith so strong, not even God could shake me.

You're at the center in all that I am, all that I've become.

You've captured my soul, when I don't feel you all I feel is numb.

Your love is so sweet but your hate is so bitter.

No matter how hard I try to wash you away, you stay stuck on me like last-night's glitter.

If I could, I would rinse you all away.

If you weren't so god damn good, I'd push stop--but instead I let this record play.

So baby play on, play on.

I am at your will, faithfully your pawn.

Play on.

Play on.

I'll love you with every ounce within me tonight, I'll save my tears for the morning--when my eyes meet day light.

Before I know it, you'll be gone.

While My Guitar Gently Weeps, play on.

Oh play on. 

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